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hi there, this is me, the owner, CADEN YAP a.k.a the singapore no.1 bastard
birthday falls on 24th MARCH every year


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Thursday, November 24, 2005 11:40 PM
yipee. today went deep into the bible? lols. yeah. went to VACATION BIBLE SCHOOL! so cool. it's from 12pm-5pm. very long indeed, but then, it's different from the normal school days. this is more fun and have greater things to learn. lols. didn't fall asleep though i slept at 5am yesterday and woke up at 10am. haha. cool right? wells, wore all black today. lols. look very funny. hais. if i could cut my hair and spike it, then it might look better. wahaha! today had lots of fun with CRYSTAL TAN she asked me stupid questions and i answer stupid answer, just to entertain her. lols. i remembered a question clearly: are you a guy or girl? and i answered her: guy! lols. laugh till we want to die arhs. haha. then we were talking about dogs on the mrt together with Chew Ting, Nigel and Jing Jing. haha. see you guys tomorrow. :)

while in church today, memories came in and out of my mind. i had a kind of feeling this morning, but i'm not sure if it is true. do i really have to wait till the day i'm gone and then i will be able to find out? hais. perhaps, everything is too late le. all i can do is to look forward and think of ways to pull my heart back. it has gone to a place where the owner do not know why it had gone there too. maybe i will choose to ignore the fact that i need to find out what exactly my heart wants. and just continue with my life, regardless of whether i will still lost you

my ** arhs. do not worry about me la. i will be alright de. if i really lose my voice, so be it la. i don't care so much about myself le. you don't so sad la and you cannot cry without me around. i know you will not cry in front of me, but i want you to cry beside me. :p everything will be fine. if ever you need someone to talk to, i'm always here for you, regardless of how busy i will be next year. i promise. soo happy that i will see you soon. lols. but please, don't siam me. if not i sure sad de.

all i wanted is just to be who we are, not caring about what will people think about us. we have our rights to pursue our dreams. i do not want you to avoid me. seriously, i missed the jokes we had, the fun we had. because you are another special person in my heart. wonder if i really had to lose you and i was serious when i said what i said to my sister, though i expected her to take it as a joke nia. nonetheless, since you cannot go, no point having me think of it. lols.